Do you ever feel like you go from mountaintop spiritual experiences to moments that remind you that you are still flawed and human?
One minute you are grateful for the way you've changed, and feeling a sense of oneness and love. And then, a minute later you're irritable, and back to being the real you?
It's very discouraging, isn't it?
But here's what you need to know: the crankypants you is not the real one...
Awakening is not changing who you are, but discarding who you are not.
Meet the Real You
Though each of us is different and unique, our enlightened selves have a lot in common.
I used to worry that I would lose myself if I became too spiritual. But I realized that the enlightened me is already there, buried beneath or hidden by the me I assumed was real.
Being spiritually awake doesn't mean you have to be some kind of saint or sage. - kidadl.com
The truth is that the spiritual awakening process is not about becoming a better person. What you awaken to is the person you already are.
And enlightenment means accepting life as it is, while at the same time becoming aware that life is much more than what we can see and touch.
Here are some quotes that will tell you a little more about what is means to be enlightened...
In order to save myself, I must destroy first the me I was told to be. -The Dreamer.
When we awaken to our truth, we realize we are free. -Kristi Bowman.
It isn’t until you come to a spiritual understanding of who you are – not necessarily a religious feeling, but deep down, the spirit within – that you can begin to take control. -Oprah Winfrey.
Do We Stop Being a Crankypants?
Spiritual awakening is a process and enlightenment is a sort of spiritual destination.
And from my understanding, we are stuck with the crankypants of it all during the journey, but the more we grow into our true selves, the less reactive we will be and the more peaceful we will be.
The reactivity, by the way, or other negative thoughts or feelings that seem like you, are a kind of extended die-off experience.
It's as if the real you is taking center stage, beginning to create beauty from the stage in whatever way you do. But for a while, you'll also have to contend with heckling from the audience, which is you as observer, but also includes the heckler who will eventually be asked to leave & escorted away.
But can't it just all happen all at once, you ask? Well, that's what I would want, too!
And I have heard that it can happen that way, sometimes. The quick-change experience may be more likely if you have a crisis experience that shocks you into a whole new way of perceiving the world.
But unfortunately, for most of us, the process is slower than we would like. ;)
Where are you on the enlightenment path?
See you next time!