This week, I have been sharing my own intentions for the new year. And always, without even having to think it over, I choose healing. I pray for healing, I look for ways to heal, and when something goes wrong, my first thought is how I am a part of the problem, and what I might need to heal as part of resolving it.
Imagine all the people [doing exactly the same thing.] You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.
What if the story of who you are and of your life, thus far, includes not only all the good that has come your way and all the character traits you inherited, learned or developed on your own, but also, they way you have been changed by wounds that didn't heal? The way the course of your life has changed because of them?
One of the things I like to say is that there is a life that's waiting for you. I believe that healing is the most important part of the path to getting there. Taking a step toward that life without healing would be like trying to get there in the dark.
What Remains Un-Healed in Your Life?
I have been a healer for about 18 years. Working on healing myself and getting the privilege of helping others heal, too. And I remember early on, having a sort of a-ha moment.
I realized because of intense self-examination that there were ways in which I wanted to change that I just couldn't make happen. Right then. It would take healing to make it possible. And I discovered exactly what was preventing that change.
It felt like setting an intention about what I would do differently or how I would react differently, heading toward it and having a locked door pop up in front of me.
What just happened? I did the same thing I always do. I found myself thinking the same thing, saying the same thing, feeling the same thing. Instantly off the path I thought I was on.
And then, it occurred to me that that might be true for all of us in many different ways. We want to change ourselves or our lives but we are locked behind the door because of things we don't even know are holding us back. Or maybe we can't even dream of the change yet.
But over and over and over again, I have seen healing make it possible to dream, and then, make dreams come true. Maybe you have seen or experienced it, too?
Trouble with Believing
I want to give you an example from my own life about not believing something was possible. My parents were both college professors. My mother was a math professor, and I often teased her about thinking there was a formula that would solve every problem in life.
Academics, I think, believe what they can see or prove is true. Or at least, they did.
So when I began to get interested in the paranormal at a young age, my mother tried to shut that down. And my father just sort of absently seemed to be allowing me to go through that phase, as if I would come to my senses.
I am strong-willed, so I kept going to the library to look for all the information I could find. But my ability to wholeheartedly believe in things like that, that you can't see, was broken.
Later in my life, when I decided I wanted to become more intuitive, I read a lot about it. But it didn't seem to work for me.
When I became a healer, I experienced a lot of cognitive dissonance. I disagreed with my mother, who discounted the idea at first, but her voice was in my head.
I loved my mother, but I have struggled to live as myself all my life, in part because she was such an authority. She knew, even if we didn't, that she was always right.
So me? A healer? Me? An intuitive? It has become a way of life, but it took a long time to take it in and fully believe it.
Especially to understand that it has been my purpose, all along. Deep in it, I sometimes thought, "is this real?" Even as I knew it was.
Both my mother and grandmother were intuitives. But they hated it, and denied it. And did their best to kill it. So I inherited their struggle.
Healing it, in myself, required seeing that struggle through the eyes of compassion, healing the limited beliefs, the fears, etc. And anchoring in the ability to go my own way, and listen to my own guidance. It was multi-layered and did not happen overnight.
Healing is not linear. And definitely not easy. Often, it's not immediate, and instead is an onion-like process.
But boy, is it powerful. And I highly recommend it.
What do you believe about healing?
See you tomorrow!